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It's not often we get the perfect day here in Melbourne, and today is no exception! It's hot as, and it only makes you feel icky and unattractive. A few degrees less tomorrow, please, I beg of you!

Good weekend! Started right after work on friday, got home and got ourselves ready for our friends to come over. Pre-drinks and great conversations before we crawled over to Barkly where the Swedish tennis party was held.

So many people there that night so it was heaps of fun, also met Jordan and his friends there which made it even better. Loads of drinks and some dancing before I had to but Jo into bed being too tipsy for her own good. Hehe. And with too much booze and so many emotions all at once I had to force her into bed after bursting into tears, hate to see her cry but it felt good taking care of her for once!

Back out with Jordan after putting her to sleep. Went Somewhere called white room (apparently they have one here in Australia as well as stureplan) to say hello to a friend of his, but no one there when we got there so we walked back to barkly. While walking back though we just saw heaps of prostitutes everywhere, filthy job I reckon but kind of funny to see. Especially when they try to sell it to you and your man while walking past, putting their legs up and leaning against a wall just like in pretty woman. But without the happy ending. Fun times. Always an experience walking back and forth to Barkly, hehe.

But anyway so it was a good long night for once when everything didn't end up with blurry memories. Went back to Jordans at 2ish, I think, so it wasn't a late night, but we did start the partying at 5pm already so even though it wasn't too late it was a long one. xxx

..you would wake up one day and realise that you've been dreaming the whole time..

Another day at work and then the whole weekend off. Which is well needed if I can say it myself.

To tonight though it's no time for rest. Australian open is on down here at the moment so there's a big party at Barkly tonight, swedish tennis party. Pretty excited. I think it might just be like a normal night but heaps of swedes, which on the other hand is going to be a bit annoying if you ask me. I always freak out if there's to many swedish speaking people around me. I feel so exposed in a way.. But anyway, should be fun. Having some swedes over at our place for pre-drinks before heading further. Going with the swedish theme tonight as well so it's blue and yellow dress+bow, hopefully a medal.

Anyhow, work, powernap, getting on it and then "tennis" party. Sounds like a good day-layout to me. xoxo

It's hard being accused of something you haven't done. Even harder when your friends get involved in everything. And the worst when you don't even want to go home anymore.

After work yesterday I just grabbed a cab home and directly went out for dinner and a movie with Jordan who helped me getting bullshit like this off my mind. Always good at helping me out, distracting me when I'm a bit down. Bless people who care for others!

But even though he dropped me off as late as 12.45am I still didn't want to go upstairs. So I talked with my neighbor because he saw that something was bothering me. Had a small conversation before I actually had to get a move on to my bed for some sleep. Only 3.5 hour sleep but I'm actually alright.

And I've said it heaps now but I'll say it again, I really can't wait for my lovely to get home tonight! Missed her so. 11 more hours until we're reunited. xxx

Okey, so I don't want to get into the whole losing weight thing again but I've realised that I must have gained some lately. Which i don't really understand cause I've been eating heaps less and healthier then when my parents were here.. So now I'm kicking of something new, just going to give it a go for a while. something called HCG diet drops (might not work but like I said I'll give it a go), hopefully I'll lose some weight at least and not just money, hehe.. And then go back to my delicious omelets! Yum.

Jo is coming home tonight as well so I have my partner in crime back. She even bought Zumba back in Sweden so now we're gonna get our groove on and get fit in a funny way. And together. No more struggling lonely runs. I'm quite excited to have her back again :) xox

Nothing says friday better then a night out on town.

Matilda and I went to Adam and Martyns hostel friday night, had a few pree-drinks in the bar there, a lot of laughters and a slip in the toilet. High heels plus water on the floor equals Maria face down in a hostel toilet (the floor not the actual toilet, hehe) not ideal but it happens. After that little misshapen we took of to another friend of Adams where we had a few more drinks before we grabbed a cab to Barkly, which was packed with people. Good night but I think I might have just been there for only one hour before I headed back home with Jordan who also were out partying with friends. No blackouts friday night which makes me happy, and Amber did not show her face either which made my night even better. And rememberable.

Saturday was just a perfectly ok day. A good morning with Jordan and some take away breakfast before he had to run. Took it easy all day by myself and then it was time for another night out. Saturday night got a bit more of Ambers scene. Quite a bad night to be honest, but hey, you win some you lose some.

xo

Some dresses are just made to go commando in, a tight slim fit doesn't do underwear that might show a love handle or two. Or just the edges of bottoms. And g-string isn't my thing. Extremely uncomfortable and to really pull them of you have to look like one of the Victoria secret models..

Hehe, once at Barkly I had this amazing black tight dress with lace details, and after 1 hour a took of my underwear and put them in my handbag just because it felt like it looked weird with them on. And 2 hours later I got kicked out instead. Not because of my Britney-move though, just because of Amber and her crazy behavior. Oh memories. Also think that was the time I kicked a crack in our front door, and smashed my hand into a brick wall..(?) Yeah what me and Amber been up to here in Melbourne.

But anyway, Amber is gone and I don't want her to show her face tonight. Going out with Matilda for some drinks, meeting up with some oldies but goodies, my friend Adam and Martyn a assume. Just a few beers and a good time and we'll see here the night leads us. It's also friday the 13th, spooky, maybe Amber will show after all. Have a good night people. xoxo

I'm getting a bit proud over myself each day now, even though the running part doesn't go too well, I did go for a run yesterday though like I said but that's when I realised how bad shape I'm actually in at the moment. Started crying like a child cause i got out of breath, then its bad. And sad. Im suppose to be a adult hey? But anyway, I have stopped eating sweets, haven't had a cupcake in over a month (not even a nibble), no lollies at home except maybe once a week but everybody is aloud something every once in a while ;) hehe.

But yeah a pretty good progress if you ask me, and something even better is that I've stopped smoking. I knew I wasn't addicted, just pure boredness, that's all. Sure I might still smoke during parties, going to try to cut back there as well though because apparently you feel way worse after smoking while drinking then if you've partied all night without cigarettes. Would be a nice experience not feeling like shit maybe? And maybe the exercising part won't suffer as much :).

Anyhow, I'm proud that I'm sticking to this for once in my life, now it's just the exercising part I need to get better at but I'm getting there! xo

It's after 5am and I woke up next to this. A 12-pack chicken nuggets. Next to me. On my bed. First I thought that I was dreaming or that I actually went out last night without remembering it today, but then I realised that I have a slight memory about hearing someone opening my door and say "Maria I bought you something from mcdonalds", hahaha! I didn't even open my eyes at the time but now afterwards I think it's kind of funny. Oh little drunken housemate of mine, at least he thought of me! Ha!

Breakfast anyone? He he.. xox

I've been through this for far too long now, having strangers calling me with either blocked number or a number I don't have on my phone. If I would ever exchange number with anyone I would make sure to save their number as well because after my little accident on gumtree, when I got heaps of disgusting men calling me, I never answers on numbers I don't recognize anymore. Sometimes if I have a feeling it might be my parents but not even that happens very often nowadays. And if I'm not answering mum or dad always sends me a text saying "is it ok for me too call you hun?"..

I especially hate when people call with blocked number because then they really have something to hide, and if it's a "real" number and I'm not answering or just hanging up on them they should at least text if they know who I am. And if I should know who they are.. But when I answer and they don't even introduce themselves or just saying "hey Maria, how are you?" i say "who is this?" they just reply by saying "Don't you remember me?" obviously I don't remember you, I don't have your number in my phone and you didn't even dare to introduce yourself just now. I mean how would I know? Anyhow, it's so frustrating always being a bit nervous picking up the phone with the thought the person on the other side might be a creep jerking of or something. Get a life people. And this has been on and off for over 4 months now. Maybe I should considering changing my number but to be honest I actually can't be asked going through the hassle. Maybe I shouldn't complain then but still, just have to make sure never to answer on numbers I do not know. At all anymore. Except for when my parents let me know in advance that they will call. xo

I pretty much stayed in all day yesterday, felt a bit guilty because I should have be outside working out, not staying inside cooking and baking all day. Don't really know what got in to me but I baked a ham and cheese-pie, and also a awesome kladdkaka, yes you swedish people out there know exactly what I'm talking about, hehe. Guess I haven't done it for a while and just been missing some baking feeling, especially being home alone and all. Having the kitchen all to myself! So i went for it. Done and satisfied with that for a while now though. But like I said, just been at home so after work today I have to go for a run. I have to. My whole body was aching when I woke up yesterday morning and even more today. I know I haven't worked out in a few days so don't know if the aching is coming from sleeping too much or something else. Maybe some other sort of physical activity, which means I really need to start working out because that would just be bad, hehe..

Anyhow, so, a run today. I really need to get started with this now. The thing is that I'm always keen in the mornings, like now, but then later after work I'm just thinking to myself "nah, I can just do it tomorrow", but no more. From this day on I will go for a run at least 3 or 4 days a week. I'm not doing anything else really after work so I might as well. I just need to pull my finger out of my ass and actually get a move on. It's only up to myself, even though I wish it was possible to hire someone to do the run for me, hehe. And I reckon I'm starting to get a bit chubby as well so I need to but a stop to this now!

At work now. 8.5 hours and then a run. Crossing my fingers that I'm sticking to it this time. I'll keep you posted! xox

Good morning people! I know it's more like "good day" but I just woke up and I don't really want to leave the bed. I can hear the bad weather outside and the tv being occupied in the living room, so it's no point for me to get out just yet. Hehe.

But anyway. I had such a good night last night. Jordan and I wasn't suppose to have dinner plans until tonight but he thought he would surprise me and show up yesterday instead. And I do love surprises! So I cooked some dinner for us, then we rented a movie and just had a really sweet night at home. Sometimes I just prefer it that way and not always having to go out for dinner, even though that's great sometimes it feels more personal staying in every once in a while. Really good night, feels nice having him back from Perth!

So now it's only one more week until Jo gets back to Melbourne, can't believe how time flys. I'm so excited! And my lovely friend Nicole is also coming in about a weeks time. And when all this is going down we have both Australian open and Australia day to look forward too. I'm crossing my fingers it will be somehow better then last year. We'll see what's going on, hopefully not work cause I would be devastated if I had to.. Oh well. I woke up happy, had heaps of cuddles and I'm still in bed so who am I to worry about 2 weeks from now.. Have a lovely day people. xoxo